Cleveland Browns wide receiver Josh Gordon is the subject of a 13-minute documentary put together by UNINTERRUPTED. In it, Gordon discusses his drug use — ranging from marijuana and alcohol to cocaine and codeine — his various suspensions, and the path that led him to his current state.
Gordon goes into extreme detail about coaches who helped him try to mask his drug use to remain eligible to play as well as the trip that eventually resulted in his bottoming out and entering rehabilitation.
“I’ve been enabled most of my life honestly,” Gordan says in the film. “I’ve been enabled by coaches, teachers, professors, everybody pretty much gave me a second chance just because of my ability. Not too long after I got arrested for possession of marijuana at Baylor, one of my coaches came by saying ‘you are going to get drug tested by the compliance office. This is how it’s going to work, this is what they are going to do. If they do call you in, here goes these bottles of detox.’ … He showed me how to drink them, showed me how to take them. That was my real first experience with getting over on the system and that authority not really being taken seriously because it was kind of being guided by somebody that’s employed by the same university.’
“I found myself around the city of Gainesville just wandering, looking for a drug dealer,” he continued. ” Looking for people on the street corner, whatever, smelled like weed, somebody that looked like they had something, asking random people, knocking on like smokeshop storefronts seeing where I could find some stuff at. I was just looking for something, some type of relief. I was walking down at 11:30 at nighttime, and that night in particular I couldn’t find anybody with drugs and I just began to have a flashback and remembered all the negative things that have happened in my life that transpired, like what led up to this point? How did it get this bad? Like It’s so dark out here, I’m all alone, what the hell am I doing? I was scared. I was scared for my life.”
Gordon’s latest stint in rehab ended in late September. Multiple reports are circulating which state this documentary was to be released as Gordon applies for reinstatement. The Browns have stated numerous times that they will no longer address the former league-leading receiver until he is reinstated by the NFL.